 TIME to get philosophical since
I almost lost my web site, my sight remaining
pretty much as always.
I
love analogies as I have already demonstrated in
my motto. I could increase that analogy to say
that as I am clinically extraordinarily far
sighted so I am philosophically as well. I am
clair voyant in the literal sense of clear seeing.
I can resolve situations and events into pattern
and predict outcome without having to go through
the laborious process of thinking it out step by
step.
This
is a by product of my neurological framework,
that what I lack in the conventional three R's
and social conventions of politeness and
hypocrisy I more than make up for with insight.
If you want to know more about this you can look
it all up in my learning difference pages.
Truly
a one eyed king in a country of the blind.
If I
should sing my own praises for once, then so be
it, as I have concentrated too much on the
negatives in my life, which are a barrier to
employment and team work.
Where
I am at today, is losing my patience with the
world outside. I am seeking the means to get back
into regular employment, and facing all the
barriers and prejudice of the unfarthinkers being
in 1999 a 43 year old who, other than my recent
spell of self employment as a photographer has
been outside of the conventional job market for
17 years, looking after my mother, but has not
neglected his skills base in the meantime.
 The voluntary sector though
is sadly underrated as an experiential qualifier,
because it does not equate in the market economy
to paid employment. I have been throughout my own
boss, setting my own timetables and priorities
within the narrow margins left to me whilst I was
a carer and in constant demand for those tasks.
Now I
have had to confront the changes in the job
market and the fact that a good CV is no longer
enough, the applications procedure is hidebound
in forms and personality assessments and job
related tests that I have had to confront my
learning disabilities, which make it difficult
for me to compete against anyone younger who does
not have these comparative disadvantages.
Employers
in my specialist field often ask for an Apple Mac
user, never mind that I know an apple mac is a
simpler tool than a PC and have followed the
vagaries of desk top publishing from the early
Gem and Dos days through to windows 95. I am as
well able to adapt to any system as any, but that
is not what they ask. Have you used a mac, can
you demonstrate this? No wonder I am tearing my
hair out faster than I am losing it.
Similarly
at the most basic level I have not one piece of
paper to demonstrate I can even use a computer.
There are kids out there with NVQ's in the
basics, that have no idea, yet they are favoured
over me, because I don't fit the pattern or the
grid they have set up to weed out those they are
not interested in. I fall through the holes and
my skills are missed.
The
worst of it is, in Tony Blair's new Britain I
cannot get back into higher education without a
job sponsor. I try not to blame the education
system of my youth for its failings in
recognising my different learning styles and
problems, but it is that same system that will
not now let me have a second bite of the cherry
at a time when learning disabilities are better
catered for in colleges and universities.
Well
at least I am technically capable of designing
and printing my own degree certificates and can
photograph myself in cap and gown, how many
graduates can do that?
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